Tim, our hearts are across the country with you and the family today as you celebrate Alicia’s life. We are with you…with Bryson, Brayden, and Willow Grace…as you honor your amazing wife and mother.
I wish I had all the answers for you and the children about why God took Alicia so suddenly and so soon. Of course, I don’t. No one on this earth does.
I wish I could take away your pain and deep grief. Of course, I can’t.
What I do know is that God is with you. I know you know that, too. You may not always feel it right now, but you know it.
I thought of you this week as I read Genesis 46, about Jacob traveling down to Egypt to see the son whom he thought was long ago dead.
Jacob was settled in Israel, content there, and old.
Israel was the land God had promised to him and his descendants.
But now Jacob was faced with the inevitable…traveling down to Egypt to see Joseph.
Egypt was the enemy. Egypt was a place of fear…unfamiliarity…full of danger and totally distasteful to Jacob.
But God told Jacob, “I am God, the God of your father; do not be afraid to go down to Egypt…”
And God continued, “I will go down with you to Egypt, and I will also surely bring you up again…”
Tim, as the dust settles, and your life continues…but without Alicia…I pray that you and the children will know that God has gone down with you to this Egypt.
“Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend to heaven, You are there. If I make my bed in Sheol, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the dawn, If I dwell in the remotest part of the sea,
Even there Your hand will lead me, and Your right hand will lay hold of me.
If I say, surely the darkness will overwhelm me, and the light around me will be night,
Even the darkness is not dark to You, and the night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are alike to You.” (Psalm 139: 7-12)
Tim, God is with you and the children in this Egypt. And just like He promised Jacob, He will bring you up again.
God will heal your hurt.
God will comfort your deepest sorrow.
God will walk with you each step of this very hard road.
God understands the question, “Why?!”
Alicia, last week Tim messaged me and said that more than once you said you would love to have met me.
Let me tell you, that I have always wished for that as well…and never more so than now after reading the multitude of posts about how many lives you touched.
Tim said you were the kindest lady he had ever known and that he was blessed to have been loved by you.
I have seen this week that this is the lifelong impact you have had on many lives as a wife, mother, sister, friend, and a brand new RN.
And especially as a follower of Christ, your kindness and love will live on in the hearts and lives of so many people.
Death has not…and will not…dull your testimony.
In fact, I do believe that God will use this as the means to show us all how very important it is to know Jesus personally…to shine brightly for Him…and to always be ready to meet Him.
Speaking of meeting, you and I WILL meet one day…of that I am very certain. I look forward to that day in heaven when I do finally get to give you a big hug and to thank you for the impact you have had on my life even from afar.
Tim, Bryson, Brayden, and Willow Grace – you are covered in our prayers.
May you, as time goes on, be able to say with Jacob, “God answered me in the day of my distress and has been with me wherever I have gone.”
We love you.