Having Aaron still live at home with us can present challenges in various ways. One issue that Gary and I face is, at times, trying to have a prolonged conversation with just the two of us. It’s amazing how often we have the following scenario:
I walk down to Gary’s study and sit in the rocker. Aaron is safely WAY up on the third floor, in his room, absorbed in a game or a movie. But somehow, someway, it’s as if the tiniest sound of our voices reaches Aaron’s ears even through his earbuds. Soon we hear the unmistakable THUMP THUMP THUMP of his heavy footsteps coming down first one set of stairs and then the second set of stairs. Gary and I look at each other in resignation as Aaron charges into the study. “MOM!!! (or DAD!!!),” Aaron bellows. “Did you know that the core of the earth is HOT?!! Why is the core of the earth hot? Can we go to the core? Would you like to go to the core of the earth??” Aaron doesn’t notice the lack of interest on our faces or hear our sighs. “No, Aaron,” I (or Gary) reply, “we don’t want to go the core of the earth.” (Although that thought might be attractive at the moment in order to afford us some privacy!). “Why not?!!” Aaron asks. So we tell him that we will talk about this later and we tell him to go back to his room and ponder the core of the earth a bit more and we wait for him to leave before we try to resume our conversation.
I have been known to say, more than once, something to this effect: “You know, it seems to be our lot in life that we can hardly have a private conversation.” Gary and I laugh as we both agree with this truth in our lives.
However, there are times that referring to my lot in life can take on a more serious tone and one that is defeating. I may not even verbalize my thoughts. That thought may be fleeting or if I’m not careful, may take root in my mind.
My “lot in life” may be an ongoing situation, such as having our adult special needs son still living with us and facing all the challenges that brings.
My “lot in life” may be a sudden situation that intrudes into my peaceful life. We all have them. Health, finances, children situations, jobs…
There is a truth that I must remember when my mind travels to considering my “lot in life.” That phrase conjures up a roll of the dice…the hand I was given…good or bad luck.
Each of those concepts go totally against my walk with God. As a follower of Christ my life is not controlled by luck or how my stars are aligned or any such nonsense.
Here’s how David put it:
“The Lord is my chosen portion and my cup; You hold my lot.”
My life’s circumstances are not controlled by chance but are designed by God for me.
God is providentially ordering my life.
And He is doing the same for yours if you are His child and are following Him.
Therefore, I can…I SHOULD…be content with God’s design of my life. Even the very hard parts that bring tears and fears.
One more thing. My “lot in life” is not your “lot in life.” And your “lot in life” is not my “lot in life.”
When I go to comparing my life to yours then I will inevitably be either discouraged or boastful…and both of those attitudes are terribly wrong.
Again, David said it well:
“I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.” (Psalm 16:8)
God is to be my point of reference. He is the answer to all my questions.
God is the One Who has given me my “lot in life.”
THUMP, THUMP, THUMP